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Tuesday, November 23rd, 2004

Time:11:31 am.
amazing how
your best friends

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Thursday, November 11th, 2004

Subject:Whats going on....
Time:7:03 pm.
Mood: excited.
Well ive noticed its been like 5 months since ive last updated. Lots have happened, good and bad. Well lets go ahead with the good....I have been dating Braxton for 5 months on November 18th. Its been the best 5 months of my life. I love him so much. He is my world and im glad I can spend my life with him. I am currently going to TCC, its going good so far. I think I am going to major in Psychological Aspects of Criminal Behavior, you know, go in the minds of the criminal and figure out why they did what they did...should be interesting. Anyways, I got fired from Tropical Smoothie (FUCK EM!) for giving my boss an "attitude" its a bunch of bull shit. But im about to get a job at Smithfield Medical so that will be better pay and 40 hours a week. So im looking at a fat paycheck! Im also going to get a new car, a 2004 Honda Civic EX, its gonna be hooked up. Well still best friends with Katie, Niki, and Jeremy. I dont smoke anymore or drink. I wouldnt mind getting drunk every once in a while, just havent had the chance to go to a good party. Things have changed between me and lauren. Not that I wanted it too, it just has. She went off to college and never calls, so i dont bother. I wouldnt mind talking to her every once in a while to make sure shes okay, i worry about her sometimes. I hope shes okay and having fun in RVA. Well dont really know what else to mention as of right now, but i will update more. promise. im out. later kids.
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Tuesday, July 27th, 2004

Subject:Summers going like this:
Time:12:24 am.
Mood: loved.
Well I came back from Myrtle Beach, after a week, and i had an awesome time there. Had so much fun walking to the Freaky Tiki Club and dancing the night away then going back to the hotel to drink coronas and take bucket drops in the bathroom. haha. And driving on the strip at night is crazy! Beads everywhere. Like Jeremy says its "25 cents a tittie!" haha. I only got two beads (cuz i got a man), while katie and lauren ended up leaving Myrtle Beach with about 20 each. Damn. Well Niki's got her own place with Timmy, which we go there and hang out and play Halo. Its fun. Now...about me and David. Things are good. I really like him. Its great. We've been dating for over a month...good good. Ive fallen for him fast. But he is gone right now in Florida for a week. :( Well not really anything else to say. Im out.
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Saturday, June 19th, 2004

Time:8:37 am.
He asked me out last night!!!! :) But now i got to leave for Myrtle Beach for a week :(
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Friday, June 18th, 2004

Time:3:53 pm.
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Thursday, June 10th, 2004

Subject:What its like to be 18!
Time:2:53 pm.
Mood: tired.
Well I turned 18 on June 6th! holla! The night before was great, Niki through me a little party at her townhouse. I was drunk by 7. It was great. I had sooo much fun. Daniel and Braxton came, and ofcourse me and Daniel were drunk and being dumb, which was sooo much fun. I felt like an ass in front of Braxton, but I didnt care at the moment. Well Niki and I passed the fuck out at like 2am i guess...i dunno i was done. But anyways on Sunday! my birthday! Me, Niki, and Katie went to Blue Horseshoe and Niki got her nose pierced, and I got my tongue and nose pierced (ow!), and Katie got a huge tattoo on her back, it looks good though. So being 18 is great. Anyways. Last night me, lauren, and jeremy went and hung out with Brett at his house, chilled there and shared our different cop stories. It was sooo great. Bretts so hot. Well after that we met up with Daniel, Brittney, and Allison and we all got in my car and went lawn gnoming. It was the funniest thing I have ever seen. We went to different neighborhoods and took shit out of their lawns and placed them in the middle of the road. Haha. great. We are doing it again tonight, but this time we are gonna go at 1 am. good times. Well nothing else to talk about. So im out. lata.
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Wednesday, June 2nd, 2004

Time:12:10 am.
I just want to be happy. With him. <3

<3*Im sorry*<3
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Tuesday, June 1st, 2004

Time:10:18 pm.
Well it was fun while it lasted and I was actually happy...but of course I did something stupid and fucked it up...damn. Something else for me to get over. Im gonna miss him.

"And you can't escape that I'm in your dreams like you swim in mine
And you'll live your whole life dreaming, your dreams will be free of me
But the truth is it's pointless"
~Armor for Sleep
Oh so true....
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Monday, May 31st, 2004

Subject:What a weekend....
Time:9:25 pm.
Mood: anxious.
Well im not sure exactly where to start off...so ill just go by days, how bout that? Well lets see...oh yea

PROM! Okay well you always hear about your senior prom being the most exciting thing in your high school career, that you would never forget it. I definitly wont. We all met at my house (Lauren, Katie, Jason, John, and Jacob) then headed out to dinner at Club Soda, where we met everyone else. Dinner was okay. I will admit I was jelouse during dinner cuz of *him* and his date...whatever...i got over it. We arrived at prom, it was great seeing everyone dressed up and having fun dancing. Everything was great, then Usher's song "Burn" came on and I saw him dancing with her to that song and i got really upset (its just a little joke between us about that song) well i saw that and immediately headed outside to take a shot...I needed it. Well needless to say after about an hour and a half prom was over. We made our way down to Nags Head with a couple of stops on the way...Beer Run...haha. Well after about almost 2 hours we arrived at the camp site. We set up the tent, jeremy fixed his bed in his car haha and we headed to the beach. I had so much fun. I dont think I will ever have an experience like that again and im glad I got to share it with everyone that came. We drank, smoked, wrestled in the water (im still waiting to get lauren back!) The funniest thing that happened was lauren getting naked, it was dark so we technically couldnt see until you see katies drunk ass chasing her with the lantern and me taking pictures. haha. That was sooo hilarious! And I got pictures. haha good times. Well jeremy, katie, and jason headed back to camp at like im guessing 4 and me, jacob, john, and lauren stayed on the beach and watched the sunrise...it was so beautiful. We saw dolphins, it was great. The whole time I was thinking about *him* wishing he couldve been there to see it, he wouldve liked it. Well that night I didnt sleep at all except on the way back home from Nags Head while listening to a song about some girl thinking this guys tractor is sexy??? wtf jeremy? honestly.

Came home from Nags Head, went shopping for *his* birthday present. Came home and went to sleep. Fun, huh?

Woke up. Did some more shopping for him. Got hit on by some guy that worked at Hot Topic. Good Times. Went to my nana's cookout with jeremy and lauren. Came home, changed clothes, left, got some red bull mixed it with Gin and was drunk by 6:30. haha. Well lauren and I stayed drunk then talked to kevin and ben then went out to Matt's house. Everyone got drunk. Watched Cartoons with rap music, watched a little bit of porn, watched this guy dance like a fool to some Coheed. haha. Good times. And then we ended up crashing there.

Woke up, dropped lauren off, came home, showered, went back out to do some more shopping....then after that came home and I havent done anything. Its great.

Tomorrow is senior skip day but I think im going to go atleast for first block. Well nothing really else to talk about. so im out. lata.
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Friday, May 28th, 2004

Time:12:01 am.
Wow. Prom. Tomorrow night. Crazy.
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Monday, May 24th, 2004

Time:6:14 pm.
People believe that there is such things as love at first sight. Maybe there is, but it takes time to truly love someone. You may be infatuated with them, but are you truly in love? I thought Ive been in love plenty of times, but it turns out to be a strong infatuation. A crush. Im starting to feel this way again and Ive known this guy for a while, but I just recently started to have feelings for him. Hopefully things will turn out better this time. Theres no way for me to tell whats going to happen between us because a lot of people are getting in the way...whether its his best friend telling me he will never be completely over me, which is bullshit cuz he never said anything before until he found out so im guessing he is just jelouse...or because our friends are getting in our business and stating things that arent completely true. Things are slowly progressing between us, i guess. Its okay though, cuz I will wait for him. I understand where hes coming from. Who knows.... Well Saturday I chilled hard at Niki's. Did a little birthday bash for katie cuz you know the red head is 18 now! woot woot! I have 13 days til im 18 and I cant wait! Im going to get my nose and prolly my tongue pierced and im gonna get a tattoo! Prom is Friday, and I went and bought the tickets today, should be fun. I found out I am graduating...rocky subject. But good news is I AM GRADUATING! But it doesnt seem real yet. Hmmm. I guess im gonna end this now. lata.
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Thursday, May 20th, 2004

Subject:Could things get any better?
Time:8:48 am.
Mood: loved.
So heres the deal, Katies 18th birthday sunday...gonna have some fun. Next weekend is PROM! wow. And thanks to Mr. Jacob Pennington I got a date to prom. Its gonna be great. I love hanging out with him, so prom and after prom will be a blast just drinking and dancing the night away, and saturday spending all day at the beach. Good times. Ive had an awesome week so far, everythings been great. I found out *he* is falling for me too! Always a plus. He came up to my work yesterday, that was a great suprise. Then I hung out with him last night, and im prolly going to tonight also. Well after this week I wont have to worry about anymore projects to do, which will be great. Yea I think im gonna cut this entry short cuz I need to work on what im gonna say for my presentation today. Late.
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Tuesday, May 18th, 2004

Time:11:53 am.
Im falling for him....<3
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Sunday, May 16th, 2004

Subject:Grounded for Life
Time:7:59 pm.
Mood: sick.
Well its been a while since ive updated so i thought id get to it....well lets start off with this. Me = Grounded! Sucks ass. I cant do anything. But its been slack lately, yesterday they let me go to Nags Head with some friends...David, Daniel, Britney, and Allison. It was a lot of fun. I cant wait to do it again. Well lets see, I havent talked to Tony in a while, since the last time i talked to him he was mad cuz i kept bringing up the fact that i was 17 so i told him to forget everything and that i would call him when im 18...which i wont. Im over it/him. Ive moved on. im glad with the decision i made to try and be with *him* I like him a lot and he is such a great guy. I like being around him and talking to him. He's great. ANYWAYS: Prom is coming up and I yet to find a date. Ofcourse. WTF? I hate school social events, i dont want to go now. fuck it. On a lighter note, I turn 18 in 21 days. How bout that? Cant wait. Gonna get my nose pierced and a tatoo. Not sure what kind of tatoo yet though. But ill work on it. Nothing too much going on. Thats pretty much it. Yea i know boring, but hey im grounded...im not supposed to have a life.
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Thursday, April 29th, 2004

Time:9:52 pm.
Why don't I like the girl I see?
The one who's standing right in front of me.
Why don't I think before I speak? (I speak)
I should have listened to that voice inside me.
I must be stupid, must be crazy, must be out of my mind
To say the kind of things I said last night
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Time:9:39 pm.
Im usually not the type of person that would tell someone exactly how i feel about them, I made that mistake of doing that this week, and ill never do it again. Fuck it.
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Sunday, April 25th, 2004

Time:9:30 pm.

MAY 28th.

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Saturday, April 24th, 2004

Time:1:23 pm.
Im so confused about everything. I dont know how I should feel right now, I want to feel happy and I also want to cry. I need a hug. :(
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Monday, April 19th, 2004

Time:11:37 pm.
And I get so close, but I runaway, I runaway.
The things I fear the most, keep me here to stay, but anyway...
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Time:10:59 pm.
Well im doing it again. Why do I always do this. I realize I hurt people by doing this. Why do I always run away. There is something mentally wrong with me. I dont get it. I always find the sweetest guy who likes me and I will like them, in the beginning atleast. But it seems like everytime I find a guy that would like to date me, I always back away. I cant understand if I just get turned off by the fact that hes into me way too much or if im afraid of getting hurt or something corny like that. Its hard to make myself give this other guy a chance when I know I cant stop thinking about *him*. I know hes not the perfect guy for me (as one of my friends would say), but I like him and he likes me and I have this strange attraction, where I always want to be with him, whether its doing nothing or going to a party. I just wish he wasnt so immature about some things....anyways im getting way off track here, thats for another entry one day. But yea this guy is sweet to me, but he calls me all the time which i guess isnt a bad thing but im just not use to it, and it freaks me out. Maybe I should stop being a bitch and grow up.
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